The next morning, I woke before sunrise with dried bl00d on my collar—and a decision that would change everything.

The next morning, I woke before sunrise with one eye swollen nearly shut and dried blood at the corner of my mouth.

For a few seconds, I did not remember where I was.

Then the pain returned.

It came first as a dull throb beneath my cheekbone, then as a sharp pulse along my jaw, then as a deep ache in my ribs where Ryan had shoved me against the edge of his marble coffee table. I lay still in the guest room of my old office building downtown, staring at the ceiling fan turning slowly above me.