He Thought He Could Control Me After Our Honeymoon—He Was Wrong From the Start

1. The First Night Back

The first sound I remember after our honeymoon was the lock turning behind me.

It was not a loud sound, but it changed the air in the apartment so completely that I stopped halfway across the living room with my suitcase still in my hand. Four days earlier, I had been standing barefoot on a beach in California, laughing while my new husband, Evan Whitlock, carried my sandals and promised that marriage would be the safest place I had ever known. Now we were back in our newly rented apartment in Lincoln Park, Chicago, and his face had become something I did not recognize.